Friday, September 29, 2006
missed me? ahha! i broke the rules i?m blogging during exam period.. hahas.. eoys started alrdy how have you guys been preparing? as usual i study like hell for this.. i really want good marks okay? just that study like hell and stressing yourself isn?t the way there?s only one way that is Jesus in him i will succeed.[note I just used a punctuation so don?t say I never use VALERIE ] sometimes I really get stressed out studying and i freak.. [geog test remember?] but freaking isn?t the way to get good grades believing in Him is.. really la.. having good grades doesn?t bring u far in life as wad coach said.. He will.. He knows ur past ur future ur present I mean other than him who does? who knows you so well tt he knows the amount of hair u have on ur head? who will forever be there with you? who knows ur hearts desires who knows what u want wad ur thinking.. honestly i myself don't know me tt well.. actually sometimes i feel tt i don't know myself at all.. but daddy knows EVERYTHING about me.. really amazing right? oops.. i forgot wad i wanted to say.. hehees.. now have other stuff.. how do you feel when u walk into the examination hall/ room? alone? terrified? funny how daddy has always been by my side and sometimes i forget he's there opening the path for me to walk looking out for me isn't it amazing? a KING in fact the King of all Kings a GOD thinks of u every second and every moment it's an honour man.. when you step into tt room u are not alone not alone your with him taking every step with him not only in exams but in everyday life.. always with him like there's an inseparatable coil of love that binds you n him together really sweet.. ya know sometimes ppl bug me and i get really irritated i can't control i burst but with God it's different u know he can never burst the more u bug him the happier he gets :D funny right? these few days been thinking quite a bit bout my bro and the ppl around me .. my bro is older than me get it striaght he is sec 4 16 years old.. my bro loves to use the com to play his maple n do his myspace.. i want to use but i dont really like dare to ask him wen he wants to use i have to let him when i want to use i dun speak i noe he wont let isn't it obivious.. the only reason i can blog now cos he's at tuition.. i asked my dad to bring home the laptop with nothing no internet no nothing not even lame games so tt he can use i give way but although we have some brushes here and there but still i give way .. in the car to school n back my mother freauently gives me talks on my brother how to learn from him n see how good he is self discipline and all tt crap yea right she doesn't know.. yes i get angry n my blood boils but at a time i was over with all these feelings i wondered have he ever felt this way before? did my mum tok to him about me? have he felt the same way? this revelation really changed my thinking what if he too was feeling the same ? or have felt the same? i no longer felt wad i felt before.. n my friends i told u i burst .. but when i bug other ppl did they burst at me? no they controlled? i tell u i really like entered his peace zone .. i felt like he was trying to teach me something.. moulding me to become a better sister or friend tt wad i wanted to be .. i felt bad i couldn't control my emotions but the funny thing is tt hor when u look at Jesus looking at u in the eye n smiling at u right u just suddenly lose all of tt n really laugh.. i told myself to type less guess tt's not gonna work.. one more thing i wondered was how could other ppl have so much faith in me i dont even have in myself? like coach and some of my friends.. why do they trust me so much? m i really wad they think i m? then i feel the need to live up to their expectations but then again what does God want me to be? Why does He have so much faith in me? Why does he trust me with such precious lives? It's really amazing that u get handed picked to do great and mighty things in him it's sort of like "huh? why me?" hahas.. okay gtg continue another day still have loads more to share :D
oh wait before i leave wanna tell u guys some wat do u call these ah testi. not the male reproductive thing the hmm.. i dunno how to say..
i'm not going for the miyazaki trip liao praise God ppl.. mr tan found me a replacement.. it really is God i tell u .. human efforts right can never compare to God.. he just suddenly have mr tan write my mum an email saying tt he found someone n more.. is going to gimme back the deposit.. praise God right? okay enuf before i die.. o wait i'm dead! dead to sin alive unto God
even the little things u know God will still come thru for u
my blogger has always been in chinese no idea why one day it suddenly changed to english praise God before tt i tried all ways to get it to eng but to no avail .. God is awesome!!!! okay now really have to leave all the best for the EOYS everyone!
God bless :D
loved by HIM Friday, September 29, 2006;
