Friday, February 02, 2007
these few days i was really full of this attitude problem i apologised if i did anything to hurt u guys or cos u guys to worry.. not only tt but i always felt this "i am not good enuf" thing.. especially during gym.. if u din noe i was made freaking captain of c girls.. during trainings the rest val chongying yanting audrey they all did better than me way better they could do like all the stunts so nicely ashley jump super high n did like everything the guys were oso like superman.. i felt really lagging behind la.. i din really wanna go gym i din wanna see my routine n how badly it was executed.. i felt really crap la.. even today.. i mean i couldn't even do a seat drop half turn properly.. i felt really really bad.. was late for gym cos of the teeshirt then some things happened along the way tt was like crap again.. ah.. i made a promise to myself val noes i really wanna keep it.. the competition is on the 19th april i'm not prepared! i'm not ready!! i cant stand it! i cant join the moves they arent as perfect enuf they arent up to standard!!! (not to put pressure on u guys dun get affected) i'm really unhappy with my routine la.. n i'm sure the coaches will have alot to comment bout it.. hahas.. then there's academically.. my teachers just love to teach so wonderfully nothin gets into my head wen they teach i try to listen but recently i just gave up on science i dun understand a thing in chinese class even though the tr teaches all but the right things and the class is so rowdy n noisy how to listen? eng is she even teaching the right things? maths wad he is trying to teach i noe liao wad's the point? lit i dun understand him.. geog i dun understand quite alot dnt too much stuff to do so little time! art she asks us to do more than it is required!! hahas.. i guess tt's almost most of the subjects now one personal stuff.. i have no idea how to deal with them it's just a mess.. vice chair this post i'm stepping down but i have to wait a couple more days.. i'll wait dun worry.. i cant wait!!! n o just today some ppl nominated me for council.. i'm gonna pon the interview if selected.. okay tt is almost everything i wanted to complain bout.. i'm happy..
basically wad i typed is not the point la.. the point is right.. no matter how stressed u get never forget the person who has been always by ur side so quite u never seemed to notice ..
yesterday night i was flipping my bible n came across this verse
1 Samuel 17:47
"Then all this assembly shall know that the Lord does not save with the sword and spear;
for the battle is the Lord's and He will give you into our hands."
wad i'm trying to say is.. no matter how big a problem noe tt it is His and all things will turn out good better than u can expect because once u let go n it is totally given to God great things will happen i'm not saying might or maybe but WILL..
for some of those ppl in my class who really feel out of place or just totally lost or both.. i just want u to noe ur not alone n u can tok to me anytime i'll listen xD.. this is for all those ppl and my Abba who encouraged me n helped me thru this time quietly putting up with all my ap.. THANK YOU. love u gals !! <3
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Abba take all these problems n all my frens n family into ur hands i wanna see ur fingerprints all over them make them prosper like never before cos them to shine like never before make them see u n recognise u as their Lord n Saviour cos it to be just so easy to overcome all the mountains in our lives. AMEN!!
loved by HIM Friday, February 02, 2007;
